I haven’t been able to emotionally regulate myself this week. I haven’t been able to push through.

I’m in a slump. It’s more that I’ve gotten hung up rather than be low on motivation. There is the monotony of stability and the instability of highs. I feel deflated.

I started counting steps this week.

Just keep breathing…

Being a valedictorian-type teenage girl, I had to do something to deal with family dysfunction and teen angst, so I listened to metal.

Just keep breathing…

Just keep breathing…

Just keep breathing…

It’s Tell. Tell someone you need help. You don’t have to ask. Tell someone; { green heart emoji }

Distilling a Why. Keeping a commitment can be assisted by having a Why that is about upholding a personal value.

April 16th is World Semicolon Day; I have been hospitalized 3 times in the past 10 years on a psych hold;

I’m grateful for the NYT daily Wordle and the online community it has prompted.

Keeping a food diary

Complete a task. Pause… Stop. Come to a complete stop, not a rolling stop. Reassess. Reevaluate. Practice transitions between tasks, chores, activities. Slow down. Be in control. Prevent the scatter-brain.

Right now is a lot of ‘I don’t wanna.’ Every day, every season has I-don’t-wanna’s, but there are times when that feeling is more intense. The resistance is resistance. Along with resistance, there is dread. And dread becomes misery. I feel miserable.

What if I can’t show up? What if I break my streak? That’s an indicator. That’s information. It might tell me that I didn’t prioritize writing time on a busy day and I should reconsider scheduling. It could be a period of crisis outside my control. Or it could indicate the beginning of illness. Having an indicator earlier could signal me to start preemptive measures before the condition worsens, lessening the severity and how long it lasts. I’m not going to look at breaking m

There are three groupings of emotions: happy, mad, sad. It’s noon. This morning, my emotions have been in the happy grouping. I have felt content.

Fire, fire, fire. Fire, fire. The title is the post. Five days of showing up. There is power in showing up. There is reward and gain in showing up. Consistency is an attribute that receives little praise. Students receive a modest certificate for perfect attendance, but perfect attendance in the workplace is a consistent paycheck. Consistency is stability. And in mental health, stability is the destination.

I live with chronic illness. Chronic illness is when a person has multiple diagnoses that add up to recurring illness, chronic fatigue, and chronic pain, but the symptoms don’t have an arching, umbrella label. I’ve been diagnosed with hypothyroidism, pseudotumor cerebri (IH), chronic migraine, and mental health conditions. Chronic illness is the cumulative. I’ve seen all the doctors, I’ve had all the tests. Fortunately, there have been no indicators of a degenerative disease.

My 2026 resolution is Wellness. My word for 2026 is Wellness. I intentionally didn’t set metric goals in any area so that I could give my attention to my health. And yet, it’s the beginning of a new quarter—the second quarter of the year. April is an opportunity to review New Year’s resolutions and goals. Edit. Revise. And… Recover. Reset. Restart. Recently, I have become goal-oriented, impeding my own resolution. I’ve begun striving and doggedly focusing on accomplishment as